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A Testimony of Tears and Triumph

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My Testimony

By Joanne “CaryJo” Norton

"Save me, O God; for the waters are come in unto my soul. I sink in deep mire, where there is no standing: I am come into deep waters, where the floods overflow me." ~ Psalm 69:1-2

WHEN I lived in the world in my sin and my shame,
You came to me often, You whispered my name.
You said, “You’re a princess, not the orphan you feel”.
I didn’t believe You; the shame was too real.

SO YOU sent some to tell me, “Life’s more than this pain.”
And my heart filled with longing to break those strong chains.
A teacher, a friend, a man on the street,
Passed by just to tell me life could be complete.

HOW I wished to believe them, I sought to be free,
For the freedom I’d found didn’t satisfy me.
I lived in the ’60’s, a child of rebellion
Churning forward and back in a black, fire-hot caldron.

BUT YOU wove the web tighter, this Love-web You’d spun,
And You tightened Your grip so that I couldn’t run.
And I couldn’t resist You–I had to be saved.
From the curses of Sin, Death, Hell and the Grave.

"Deliver me out of the mire, and let me not sink: let me be delivered from them that hate me, and out of the deep waters. Let not the waterflood overflow me, neither let the deep swallow me up, and let not the pit shut her mouth upon me. Hear me, O LORD; for thy lovingkindness is good: turn unto me according to the multitude of thy tender mercies. And hide not thy face from thy servant; for I am in trouble: hear me speedily. Draw nigh unto my soul, and redeem it" ~ Psalm 69:14-18b

I STILL wasn’t happy although You’d received me.
The patterns of sin and abuse had deceived me.
For You were a Father, and Fathers are cruel,
With promises broken and strong hands to rule.

I LEARNED to obey You, to yield to Your Way,
But lived in deep heart-pain, as day followed day.
As month followed month, and year followed year.
With no hope that the sunshine would ever appear.

AND WHEN a dear friend died, I mourned and I wept,
But You chose then to touch me; a promise You kept.
In the night hours of sorrow, You said, “You’ll be free.
You learned to trust this man; You’ll learn to trust me.”

AND IN time that’s what happened, and I’ll never know how.
But I learned to walk with You like a small, trusting child.
My life wasn’t easy; day by day chaos reigned.
But I knew that You loved me, so endured life’s sharp pain.

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THROUGH MORE years of darkness, oppression and sorrow,
I grew to trust for today, and to hope for tomorrow,
For I knew since You loved me it brought You no joy
To watch as I suffered, while I saw sin employed.

"I waited patiently for the LORD; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD." ~ Psalm 40:1-3

AND ONE day it happened. My bonds dropped away.
And grateful and joy-filled, I faced a Bright day.
But – without the constraints of life’s darkness and pain,
In freedom, I stumbled, tripped up by those chains.

AND THE torment endured was new every day.
I thought Your mercies had fled, so I withered away.
Winter’s ice-blasted fingers encircled our town
And, my soul, like the grasses, turned lifeless and brown.

"I will praise thee: for thou hast heard me, and art become my salvation." ~ Psalm 118:21

I FORGOT there’s a truth, in the soul and the earth:
Winter is fleeting; with Spring comes rebirth.
And You said, “Child, Watch! As Spring comes to your door,
Like the robins and lilacs, your soul I’ll restore.”

YOU SPOKE the word “Queenly” to my heart every day
And reminded this waif of a much nobler Way,
And gently restoring your Fatherhood cover,
Enhanced it, with grace, as my Soul’s Holy Lover.

NOW WITH Savior and Father and Lover and Friend,
MY soul knows no darkness when shadows descend.
In Your love and Your kindness my heart safely rests,
And I am, among women, most wonderfully blest.

By Joanne “CaryJo” Norton
The original can be found here.

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“I wrote this some time ago, based on Song of Solomon, but even today, I know that without His faithful and forceful and never-ending reconciliation, there would be no hope, no true life. I’m one grateful God-child.” ~ Joanne “CaryJo” Norton

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4 Comments

    • You are most welcome, Joanne. It is an honour to work with a ‘sibling in Christ’ in spreading the good news. 🙂

      Please, keep this blog-ministry in your prayers.

      God Bless!!!

  1. scharllene says

    How wonderful it was to read that. I needed to hear that, thanks for sharing. You dont know but my you writing this it help alot people like me to go throw the storm and win the race.

    GOD bless

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