“That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts; And be renewed in the spirit of your mind; And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness.” ~ Ephesians 4:22-24

Search me, know me;
stay away.
I want love and salvation,
but I want it my way.

I adore you; I defy you;
I need your grace.
I am broken; I’m unworthy;
I am on my face.

You are holy, you are perfect
you scare me sometimes.
You’re the only One I want here,
but then I run and hide.

You so love me; you revive me;
you give me your strength.
You correct me; you forgive me;
you remove my shame.

I am trying; I’m improving,
though still I fall.
Always watching, always hoping,
to survive it all.

Knowing someday, when You’re ready,
I will rise on wings
To your home Lord, to your arms Lord,
where the angels sing.

Then all the struggle, all the failure,
will count as naught.
I will see me as You’ve seen me:
a child of your heart.

No more tears there, only laughing
as I praise your name.
Free to serve you and adore you
all those endless days.

by Joelle Heilemann